Fed up…as per…

I am so sick of being tired all day, resisting as much as I can not to “nap”, then when it gets to 9pm or so, feeling so tired I could sleep for a month, then “BOOM”, my brain fully engages in what ever it decides to, to prevent me from switching off and going to sleep.

We bought a new bed recently, and I haven’t even spent one night in it yet. I’m getting so effed of with it, its getting me down.

My brain wants to shutdown at the wrong times, and insist on keeping me awake when I should be sleeping.

“ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!”

I’ve tried sleep aids and they do feck all, I’ve tried drinking alcohol to make me pass out and that doesn’t seem to work (properly) either.
I’m fed up of it now, all I want to be able to do is switch off, go to a nice warm bed and go asleep without waking until morning (and not disturbing anybody else with (perhaps lol) snoring)….

 

Here I am again…

I’ve slowly started getting back into my domain again.
I’ve started by blowing the dust of my Ubuntu system, giving it a good clean and update and then started to look at my domain.

Anybody who knows me will tend to realize I am quite a quiet person, who will very rarely share personal thoughts or go into detail about the things that affect me.
Needless to say, this is one of those times again, where I have had to pull myself out off a spell of depression.
I dare say I am not fully out of it, and it is probably one of the longest periods of depression I have faced to date.
I’m not going to go into mega amounts of detail, and I will stress that this and previous posts are not a cry out for help, it’s not a sympathy vote, it is merely the way I cope with things, a release if you will.
Never the less, hopefully, I will be engaging more with the domain and I may end up picking up old software projects and see if I can’t give it a new lease of life.

Right now, I am looking at my site and thinking “does that need to be there”.
I’ve said it before, countless times that the site lacks direction and purpose.

I have too many things on the go and I’m finding it impossible to do it all. From additions to updates I am failing.

So whilst the site itself may seem a little redundant and very little changes, behind the scenes I am tackling the tough decisions of what to keep and what to axe.
The main reason I have that many things on the go with the domain is purely because I like the software. It may sound strange, but I like to learn new things, so installing new software to try out and learn is mainly the reason I do it in the first place.

So, the plan is, is to cut down on the crap, shave down what I’ll keep and stick to some sort of order that is manageable and not critically time-consuming.

As always to the people who regularly visit or contact me, thank you.

Hi All,

Long time no see…
Well, truth is, I’ve been a little self absorbed.
Ultimately trying to sort my head out.

Those who know me will know that from time to time I go through phases where I pretty much think “Screw it all!”.

Over these last few months, it has been one of those times and even now I’m having trouble focusing on things I really should be.

This blog is the only place where I feel I can speak openly and freely without ridicule or judgment.
At the moment, I’m just concentrating on being me, rather than trying to please people all the time.

I’m not very good and speaking in the fullest abouts my feelings etc, but a little part of my emotions comes out one in a while in posts etc.
Nobody likes to read the rantings of a moaner I guess, and thats probably why everyone tends to see me as “fun loving” Roy which sometimes is a strain in itself.

Anywhoo, this is the way I deal with things, so thats that off my chest 🙂

I must really get my arse into gear an work on the site lol

Regards

Roy

Its been a while…

Todays post is not about the site etc, more of something a little bit strange. Possibly even paranormal, who knows.
Read more Its been a while…

More reasons to prove this country is turning to shit

This idiotic and pathetic government are driving people into poverty, nothing new there.
But a new tactic the DWP have imposed is stricter control over the JSA claimant.
Basically and in short, the DWP can restrict payments if you do not apply for or attend work based activities. In addition if you leave a job voluntarily or be sacked from a job for misconduct, you will have your money stopped for up to 3 years, depending how many times you offended. But, what if you’re sacked from an unscrupulous employee who marks it as gross misconduct etc.
I agree with some of the policy, in regards to people getting JSA but not seeking work, they should be stopped.
The thing I disagree with is the whole JSA agreement. I have (personally) been FORCED into signing an agreement that could/would cause issues at home etc. They have said, as I rely on public transport, they have told me I can travel for up to 90 minutes. This is forcing me to look too far a field, as they think point A to point B is within 90 minutes, but don’t take into consideration the length of the journey, routes the bus takes etc. But if I refuse to look for a job they consider is within 90 minutes or I don’t apply for what they tell me about, they can stop my money. They have even told me that I even have to consider (their word for forced) jobs that finish at 10pm. So worse case scenario, I finish at 10pm, have to travel 90mins so that’s 11.30pm, but considering my bus services’ last bus is 10.30pm, I would be stranded, unable to get home. I couldn’t even ask my wife to pick me up in the car, because we have 2 children that would be in bed.
After all this, these arseholes have had the audacity to say if I am unsuccessful in the work I’m looking for, I will be found work in a factory, and that’s basically tough shit.
So in short, the DWP are forcing people to take jobs they maybe no good at, or have no experience in, that may destroy your family life by stupid and unrealistic travel arrangements and destroy any dreams or aspirations you have of getting the job you want, just so they can ultimately say “unemployment down”.
Personally, I want a job, I don’t like living on benefits. I’ve worked most of my adult life and through no fault of my own I’ve been left without work, and feel degraded because I’m treated like those scroungers that get dole money to get pissed or stoned!
Absolutely disgraceful this country and what its become.
England is turning to shit, thanks to the powers that be…

It’s all gooood!

‘Steady’ is the pace for the website now. New ideas and additions are ceasing for the moment. I’ve got lots of ‘current’ projects to keep me busy for a while on the site not to mention the sorting of disks to achieve that goal.

I’m very pleased overall with the speed the site has progressed and developed.
I must also mention and give a big thanks to ALL the visitors and more so to those who became members. One in particular has even become part of the ‘staff’ as a full time tester.

As most people have asked this, I am also in the process of writing a history about the whole ideas and motivations about the projects I’ve been involved in, regards Destiny Creations, RBCSoftware and RBCJ Hub. I have covered this several times over the years, usually via emails in reply to people’s questions, but never really covered in-depth about the entire concept, hopes and aspirations I wished to convey.
Here’s my chance as it were.

Other news this time round is a personal congratulations to Shelley and Ryan on the birth of their beautiful baby boy Leo, who was born 8lbs 4oz at 2:09pm on the 28th of August 2012. All the best to your tribe from ours xxx

The joys and woes of the internet and ISPs

Where do I start?

For the reference of this post, I will replace the name of my Internet Service Provider, simply with <My ISP>.

Lets slag off <My ISP> seeing as this company is the one who has most pissed me off this week.

Read more The joys and woes of the internet and ISPs

Bah Humbug(ish)

I seem to be having this conversation every
fking year! Read this post if you don’t
believe me: http://www.rbcsoftware.me.uk/?p=597
For (hopefully) the last time. In short, I do not regret Christmas,
for the traditional values, not for the hyped up commercial shit
that gets rammed down our throats!
Read more Bah Humbug(ish)

Did you know…?

Did You Know?

In Lebanon, men are legally allowed to have sex with animals, but the animals must be female.
Having sexual relations with a male animal is punishable by death.
(Like THAT makes sense)

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In Bahrain, a male doctor may legally examine a woman’s genitals,
But is prohibited from looking directly at them during the examination.
He may only see their reflection in a mirror.

(Do they look different reversed?)

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Muslims are banned from looking at the genitals of a corpse.
This also applies to undertakers.
The sex organs of the deceased must be covered with a brick or piece of wood at all times.

(A brick??)

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The penalty for masturbation in Indonesia is decapitation.
(Much worse than “going blind!”)

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There are men in Guam whose full-time job is to travel the countryside and deflower young virgins, who pay them for the
privilege of having sex for the first time
Reason: under Guam law, it is expressly forbidden for virgins to marry.

(Let’s just think for a minute; is there any job anywhere else in the world that even comes close to this?)

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In Hong Kong, a betrayed wife is legally allowed to kill her adulterous husband, but may only do so with her bare hands.
The husband’s illicit lover, on the other hand, may be killed in any manner desired.

(Ah! Justice!)

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Topless saleswomen are legal in Liverpool, England – but only in tropical fish stores.

(But of course!)

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In Cali, Colombia, a woman may only have sex with her husband, and the first time this happens,
Her mother must be in the room to witness the act.

(Makes one shudder at the thought)

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In Santa Cruz, Bolivia, it is illegal for a man to have sex with a woman and her daughter at the same time.
(I presume this was a big enough problem that they had to pass this law?)

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In Maryland, it is illegal to sell condoms from vending machines with one exception:
Prophylactics may be dispensed from a vending machine only “in places where alcoholic beverages are sold for consumption on the premises.”

(Is this a great country or what? Well…not as great as Guam!)

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Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour.

(Who volunteers for this stuff?)

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Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.

(Is that why Flipper was always smiling?)

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The ant can lift 50 times its own weight, can pull 30 times its own weight and always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.

(From drinking little bottles of????)

(Did the government pay for this research??)

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Butterflies taste with their feet.

(Ah, watch what you step in……)

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An ostrich’s eye is bigger than its brain.

(I know some people like that)

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Starfish don’t have brains.

(I know some people like that, too)

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And, the best for last:

Turtles can breathe through their butts.

(And I thought I had bad breath in the morning)