Fed up…as per…

I am so sick of being tired all day, resisting as much as I can not to “nap”, then when it gets to 9pm or so, feeling so tired I could sleep for a month, then “BOOM”, my brain fully engages in what ever it decides to, to prevent me from switching off and going to sleep.

We bought a new bed recently, and I haven’t even spent one night in it yet. I’m getting so effed of with it, its getting me down.

My brain wants to shutdown at the wrong times, and insist on keeping me awake when I should be sleeping.

“ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!”

I’ve tried sleep aids and they do feck all, I’ve tried drinking alcohol to make me pass out and that doesn’t seem to work (properly) either.
I’m fed up of it now, all I want to be able to do is switch off, go to a nice warm bed and go asleep without waking until morning (and not disturbing anybody else with (perhaps lol) snoring)….

 

Could someone answer me this…?

I try to live my life by the fact of “Life is about getting knocked down, living is about getting back up!”
Simple concept…but at any stage in my life, am I actually going to get a break.

The amount of crap I have to go through on a daily basis, dealing with phone calls, speaking to incompetent people. I’m sure people do it just to get some perverse pleasure out of it.

I tell you something, if I ruled the world, a would put all the stupid people on one island so they could be arseholes to each other and gradually destroy themselves.

I’m so sick and tired of posts on here being negative, and yeah I know “Stop posting them then!”.
Its a fair point, I admit, but I want to get thinks off my chest before I start smashing my head against a brick wall.
I just want to be able to write something good, thats good about me.
I know I’ve got family, and thats another side of me, its the other part of me, as in myself.

Its hard to explain, and I don’t want it to come across as me not appreciating my family, because they’re all awesome, my wife, my daughter and my son.

Grrrr….sometimes I think I hate life, and life hates me!

I’m just pissing and moaning I guess. I’ll shut up for now :o)

Bits and bobs

After a lot of crap circulating around Facebook in the way of sick, distressing and upsetting images, I have decided to stand-up for what I believe in a have boycotted Facebook for 7 days in a silent protest.

I know its not going to do anything, but it is the principles of it. I’m sick of wading through countless images that shouldn’t even be on there, yet Facebook do nothing to remove them.

My argument is this, Facebook allow 13+ year olds to register, and certainly there is content on there that shouldn’t be viewed by 13-18years, yet still continues to be allowed. Why?
In my view it is because Facebook are too bothered about “Profit” to not allow content, and deliberately¬†hold off as long as possible before removing the offending item(s) just so they can get more profit out of people who create or upload this image(s) or page(s).

Its wrong, and therefore, this is my silent protest.
Just to give you an idea of what I’m talking about, there are page(s) being create with such names as “Wank Bank”, what does this tell you?
The post images which can only be described as mild porn, and whilst I use the term “Mild”, it should not be accessed to minors (<18 years old). I’m no prude, and yes, I’m partial to a little female nudity, but this is ridiculous.
If porn sites where to allow minors to access this content (by way of lack of security checks) they would be shutdown, yet Facebook seem to be able to get away with it until someone reports it.
But even on that score, when people do report it, Facebook have a very, VERY basic way of reporting it, and sometimes the options available may not necessarily¬†be a true reflection as to why you are reporting it in the first place. This, again, leaves it open to Facebook saying it doesn’t infringe any policy they have resulting in the content being allowed.

I know it’s all about profit, but this is stupid the way Facebook can get around moral issues the way they do.
I’m thinking of switching altogether to Twitter, less hassle.
Rant over, because the more I type, the more I get pissed off with it all…

I don’t feel very well…

Well, came home from work early, went to doctors, and it turns out that my sickly feeling today was a anxiety attack…Great.
No only do I have, high blood pressure, knackered sinuses, acid reflux and mild depression, I now get anxiety attacks.
Something else to add to my list of problems.
Oh well, and to top it all, I took the wrong tablet at 6 o’clock. I took Ametriptolin (not even sure if thats the right spelling!), so I was falling asleep by 8pm.
Anyway, a good friend of mine from work has very kindly modded by PSP…Homebrew here I come!
I’ve also got the psp connected to PC in a way that I can play using my computer monitor rather than psp screen.
Why I don’t know, and it sort of defeats the objective of being a “portable” device. Anyway, thanks Dave for that.
Managed to pay my gas and electric bills this morning, so at least my day hasn’t totally been to pot.
Anyway, as usual, only came on to do a quick post, tweak the site then goto bed, coz I am soooo tired.