Where have I been???

If you been over to RBCJ-Hub lately, you will have seen a post where I touched briefly about how everything about the site etc has suffered due to ill health.

I thought I would update in more detail as to the situation.

A couple of weeks ago, I woke up struggling to breath, and every time I tried to walk anywhere, I had severe pains in my chest and side causing me to quickly get out of breath.

Panicking, I asked my wife to ring 101. The paramedic arrived and did all the routine checks etc, after about 10 minutes the ambulance crew arrived and after a short conflab with the paramedic, they decided to give me gas and air to relieve the pain, alongside codeine & paracetamol.

The pain subsided enough for me to board the ambulance and be taken to Barnsley General Hospital.
On the way, I asked what the problem could be (as rather stupidly, I left it and left it thinking it was a chest infection, lesson learned!).
Of course, they could only speculate with the symptoms I had described.

Waiting in A&E for what seemed like an eternity with my brother (god bless him for coming and meeting me at hospital) I was told I needed several blood tests.
I can’t really say what I thought, but to put it politely, I thought “Oh dear”.
After 35 years, this was my first ever blood test, and I’m scared of needles…
Now I will just clarify something, I say I am scared of needles and certainly the first thing the doctor said,
“How can you be scared of needles when you have tattoos?”, and simply my reply was, “I was pissed!”

In short, throughout the course of the day, I had 8 needles! (not much to some, but enough for me).
Trying to get blood from my wrists to test blood gases (or something like that) and blood from my arms. The reason I had so many, was, well, in short they couldn’t find a suitable vein lol…

After spending 10 and a half hours in hospital (A&E (Accident and Emergency) and AMU (Acute medical unit)) I was sent home. Yey…or not.

The suspicion of blood clots was believed to be the cause of everything, but they could not confirm this at that moment.
As they suspected blood clots, they had to treat me as such and start treatment right away to get a “head start”. In addition, I had to go to DVT for a daily blood test to monitor my INR (international normalized ratio).
Click here for more information on INR.
My INR was very low, 1.1 in fact, my therapeutic range is between 2-3. My blood was too thick, so I was given a regular (daily) injection into my stomach of Clexane. Great, more needles…

After a week or so of this action being taken, I had to have a scan on my lungs which involved laying flat on a ‘table’ and have a very noisy ‘polo mint’ type machine scan my lungs after they had injected me with a special (radioactive) dye.
The medical staff’s suspicion was confirmed. I have indeed got blood clots on both my lungs and I had suffered a Pulmonary Embolism.

Anyway…Having overcome my fear of needles (and pretty bloody quickly! (no pun intended)), as mentioned, I now have to attend regular blood tests to continue monitoring my INR, and continue on a prescribed anti-coagulant ‘Warfarin’.
So far my INR has fluctuated from 1.1 to 4.0 over the last month, but at least I am only having to go to hospital about once or twice a week now.

So, there you have it. My month in a nutshell…
Despite the seriousness of the condition, I am quite well in myself. I have a few pains and twinges now and again, occasionally I have to walk with a stick to support myself if I get breathless when I’m out and about, but other than that I am fine.

Just as a side note, after 6 months I have to be screened for something called “Factor 5 Leiden“, which is a genetically inherited blood disorder. It basically means, my blood is trying constantly to clot.

Grrr

Portal has totally bottomed out. Server time out issues causing problems accessing the site. Unfortunately, this also happened in the middle of an upgrade. I don’t yet know if I can resolve this issue or even verify the upgrade was successful, until the intermittent server side problems are resolved.
It’s really frustrating as I cannot do anything until morning, so I’m left with a non-function site overnight :0(
A ticket has been raised with provider, I know it’s not anyones fault, but its just so head bangingly frustrating…
Let’s see what tomorrow brings.

Well, well, well

Where do I start?

A lot of things have happened since my last post.
1) My time with British Gas is now at an end, I have moved on to other climbs within support work. I’m glad to say I left on a very positive note and will be sad to leave the place, but I need to move on.

In addition to this, for people I worked with at British Gas I will be, shortly, posting a final message to you all.

2) I’ve just been doing some site related stuff and found that RBCSoftware – Learning by Design has just recently celebrated…wait for it…

Just over 2,000,000 unique visits (2,001,556 to be precise!) since the site was launched way back in 2007.
Now I know to some, that this amount within 3 years is quite feable, and to a degree I agree! I think overall it is quite an impressive amount for the input I put in.
So thank you one and all to all the people that keep visiting and to all those who have visited in the past.

Fetch! news now…
Things are hotting up in the Fetch! development with some cool new features in there. So far, the download its self is not available as I really do want this program to work 100% before general release. Also, there are a number of known bugs in the code which I am currently working around.
Now that I will be working 4 on 4 off shift patterns, it does give me the opportunity to work more on my projects and sites.

As with many things however, things get left by the wayside and I’m sorry to report that several aspects of my work has suffered as a result.
My DJ and download central projects are but two of these aspects that have been greatly effected, hopefully that will be put right.

Well, our boys are out of the world cup after losing 4-1 to Germany, to be fair should have been 4-2 (that bloody ref, and lines men are to blame!). Still, we have to admit that we were out played, but well done to England anyway.
I don’t normally watch football, as my previous rants may indicate the reasons why, but I still felt the urge to spur our team on, after all it is the World Cup!

Anywhoo, I’m off for the moment, gotta wake Babs up and take her out for lunch (before anyone asks, no shes not lazy, just recovering from a night shift!).

Bye for now!

Delays, delays and more delays…

Everytime I want to do something, it cocks up.

Firstly, the phoneline goes off.
It comes back on, yey!
I’m on my arse, as I am so poorly and unable to edit website.
I get well  again.
Phone line goes off again.
Phone line  gets restore.
Illness comes back, and I’m back on my arse again…

So b*lls to it, if this is an exceptionally frustrated, angry and shocking post, I really couldn’t give a flying monkeys testicle.

Anyway, seeing as the main topic of conversation seems to be the recent phoneline outages, I aint going to mention any names, but we all know who they are that did it.
Sooo…STOP F**KING DOING IT!
Next time, I hope they manage to cut a wire wrong and get electrocuted, pikey b**t**ds.

Thats one less thing on my chest, which is more than can be said for all the mucus I’m spitting up, gross I know, but hey…like I said, I’m in a “dont care” mood.

I’ve just been reading about how Ian Huntley, the Soham Murderer, has had his throat cut and been taken to an outside hospital today (21 March 2010).
Is it me, or should they have left b**t**d to die, then take him out to some woodland area and burn him, as he did those poor girls, Holly and Jessica.
I know you shouldn’t wish negativity on another human being, but for what that guy did, dont get me started.

Anyway, I’m off now…suddenly decided I can’t be bothered :o)

Just kidding, just really tired…

RBCSoftware to close

Yup, thats right.

Unfortunatly, due to my own personal finances, I am unable to support RBCSoftware Online any longer.

Bascally, my hosting fees are due, as are my domain package, so basically, I have £39.98 to find by 16th of February.
Personally, I can’t see this happening, so RBCSoftware is scheduled to close.

Its with great sadness that RBCSoftware is to close, and the site has developt in many different ways.
I thank all the people that have ever visited or contributed, and hope that sometime in the future RBCSoftware may return to continue from where it left off.

For now, thank you one and all.

Roy
RBCSoftware Team

Sorry… [Please Read]

Sometimes, there are times when action cannot be expressed and words can only follow.
What you are about to read, is how I feel. I am not on the verges of suicide and I am not in need of counselling.
I cannot explain why I wrote this, nor do I wish to try.
I can only say, if it makes sense to you, the reader, then you are the same as I.

Thank you for reading.

Sat here thinking the things I think, I can’t help but wonder.
No, it’s not the beginning of a fancy poem or some other intellectual writings, merely an awakening to hows things were, are and how they will be.

Sometimes, life is hard and it bites back harder than I.
And sometimes the knocks are not so easily returned from. But the small things in life we often take for granted, get left behind, with no hope of being found again.
For this is the place where I find myself at, at this time.
The knocks are hard, and the harshness of bitter words are more hurtful than the sharpest of blades, and yet life continues.
Maybe it is the wine talking through my fingers or just the time where I feel only sorrow, I grasp at these words so dearly.

I’m sorry for the things I’ve done, the things I haven’t and the things I should have.
I am but one person, whos life has been tainted, with whom the closest cannot comprehend.
I’m sorry for the way I act, and the shame I hide.
I’m sorry for the hurt I’ve caused, and the twisted words I’ve uttered.
I can only explain that, the life I lead is like a sealed chamber, bashing against the sides, trying to be heard, but failing to address the onlookers.
Intolerably lonley whilst in a crowded room, deafened by the silence and blinded by all there is to see.

Whilst some may wonder, what am I talking about, and others may laugh at the words I’ve typed, as anything if life that is to be understood, no-one feels it greater than the one who understands.

And as I type, I could be considered not in a fit state, to wonder if grammer has been adhered to, and that spelling is correct. I just sit here quiet.
Wondering.
Always wondering.”

-Roy-