I’m still here…

For the past couple of months, well, about six months to be precise, I have found it increasingly difficult to motivate myself to do anything across the whole of my domain.

Personal health has been one of the biggest factors causing this period of inactivity, but amongst that, I am suffering from a kind of depression I find difficult to talk about, as to some it would probably sound silly.
Nevertheless, it is this amongst a few other issues that are causing me to show very little interest at the moment.

So what will happen to RBCJ Hub?
To be honest, I have not yet thought deeply into it much, purely for the same reasons as above.
However, for the meantime, the pages of RBCJHub will remain open and active until such time I am able to give a clear and decisive action.

I hope that for the moment people will at least try and understand without prejudice and continue to visit for whatever reason you choose. As I have done today, I will try at some point(s) to keep you all updated, but for now, thanks for visiting…

Roy
~ The Creator

Where have I been???

If you been over to RBCJ-Hub lately, you will have seen a post where I touched briefly about how everything about the site etc has suffered due to ill health.

I thought I would update in more detail as to the situation.

A couple of weeks ago, I woke up struggling to breath, and every time I tried to walk anywhere, I had severe pains in my chest and side causing me to quickly get out of breath.

Panicking, I asked my wife to ring 101. The paramedic arrived and did all the routine checks etc, after about 10 minutes the ambulance crew arrived and after a short conflab with the paramedic, they decided to give me gas and air to relieve the pain, alongside codeine & paracetamol.

The pain subsided enough for me to board the ambulance and be taken to Barnsley General Hospital.
On the way, I asked what the problem could be (as rather stupidly, I left it and left it thinking it was a chest infection, lesson learned!).
Of course, they could only speculate with the symptoms I had described.

Waiting in A&E for what seemed like an eternity with my brother (god bless him for coming and meeting me at hospital) I was told I needed several blood tests.
I can’t really say what I thought, but to put it politely, I thought “Oh dear”.
After 35 years, this was my first ever blood test, and I’m scared of needles…
Now I will just clarify something, I say I am scared of needles and certainly the first thing the doctor said,
“How can you be scared of needles when you have tattoos?”, and simply my reply was, “I was pissed!”

In short, throughout the course of the day, I had 8 needles! (not much to some, but enough for me).
Trying to get blood from my wrists to test blood gases (or something like that) and blood from my arms. The reason I had so many, was, well, in short they couldn’t find a suitable vein lol…

After spending 10 and a half hours in hospital (A&E (Accident and Emergency) and AMU (Acute medical unit)) I was sent home. Yey…or not.

The suspicion of blood clots was believed to be the cause of everything, but they could not confirm this at that moment.
As they suspected blood clots, they had to treat me as such and start treatment right away to get a “head start”. In addition, I had to go to DVT for a daily blood test to monitor my INR (international normalized ratio).
Click here for more information on INR.
My INR was very low, 1.1 in fact, my therapeutic range is between 2-3. My blood was too thick, so I was given a regular (daily) injection into my stomach of Clexane. Great, more needles…

After a week or so of this action being taken, I had to have a scan on my lungs which involved laying flat on a ‘table’ and have a very noisy ‘polo mint’ type machine scan my lungs after they had injected me with a special (radioactive) dye.
The medical staff’s suspicion was confirmed. I have indeed got blood clots on both my lungs and I had suffered a Pulmonary Embolism.

Anyway…Having overcome my fear of needles (and pretty bloody quickly! (no pun intended)), as mentioned, I now have to attend regular blood tests to continue monitoring my INR, and continue on a prescribed anti-coagulant ‘Warfarin’.
So far my INR has fluctuated from 1.1 to 4.0 over the last month, but at least I am only having to go to hospital about once or twice a week now.

So, there you have it. My month in a nutshell…
Despite the seriousness of the condition, I am quite well in myself. I have a few pains and twinges now and again, occasionally I have to walk with a stick to support myself if I get breathless when I’m out and about, but other than that I am fine.

Just as a side note, after 6 months I have to be screened for something called “Factor 5 Leiden“, which is a genetically inherited blood disorder. It basically means, my blood is trying constantly to clot.

Exciting perhaps…

Over the last couple of months a lot has changed.
Through my own choice, I am now a stay at home dad having quit work to support my wife. As my wife is her fathers full time carer, its made it an extra strain, and so with that followed my resignation.
Sad to leave, but family come first.
Of course this also means I will be attempting to update my sites quicker and more often, although, my luck in this area has been a little less than “nothing”.
However, we shall see over the coming months…

I’m still here…

Yes, I am actually here…
Over the past couple of months or so I have been battling with depression again and so much so that I am now on anti-depressants.

Read more I’m still here…

first post of 2013

what can I say? with everything going off in my life nothing had been updated!

I’m fed up of just not being able to get things done, and it seems I just constantly post things saying just that.
As always, work, family, stress, tiredness and totally random events are stopping me from doing the work I want to do.

The main site is progressing but not at the pace I would like, and at the time of writing, it is still in maintainence mode.
I’ve pushed back the relaunch date twice now and wondering if it will ever be back online at all.

Hopefully I will be able to make some headway over the next couple of days as I have some annual leave booked in, plus if this snow continues, I may not be able to get to work…

We shall see…

Reponses and such things

Hi all, long time no speaky communication thingie!

Truth is, as ever, I’m just so damn busy with everything

One thing I have noticed, but not done anything about is the posts from other people visiting from other places and how I dont acknowledge them.
So firstly, a massive apology for this, but from now on, please expect a response as I approve the comments. Its nice to get feedback (good or bad) from people who visit and bother to write, but totally ignorant of me not to comment back…

Secondly, I mentioned and touched upon things a couple of weeks ago about disbanding parts of the site etc and introducing this that and the other. Well, I currently under way with this you’ll be pleased to know, and hopefully things will be getting processed and updating as it happens.

So, thanks for keep coming back and visiting folks, and please keep coming back for these updates…

– Roy

New Year, New Start, New Headache!

So far, 2011 has been nothing but troubles!
Still, on a brighter note, the Defiance website is almost ready to go live, and a number of issues from 2010 have been sorted!

Read more New Year, New Start, New Headache!

New Tunes available!

Theres a couple of new tunes/mixes available over at RBCSoftware Music Centre (here). Namely a 30 minute Gabber mix and a 1hr of cheesy Dance music (Mainly Basshunter).
These were done some time ago, whilst I was testing some new DJ software, this is the result. Not great mixes by a long chalk, but put on there for, if nothing else, for nostalgia.

Just to clarify too, the Dance mix was mainly Basshunter, as Caitlin my daughter is a massive fan and loves to jump and dance around to his choons. Bless her.

Recently I have received alot of email regards to all my software projects and requests for software. I can honestly say I have had no time to concentrate on any software projects over the last couple of months as previous posts suggests. 2011 is my defining year, and the time when I plan to really push my software projects.
As a result, and as a few of you have already noticed, the download central is currently down.
I think the main problem is, I thought it would be easy to maintain all aspects of RBCSoftware, and clearly it isnt!
So from January 2011, I will be discipling myself and creating a “Rota” system to better manage my time and RBCSoftware.

As always, thank you to all the regular readers, contributers & listeners that boost my motivation to keep RBCSoftware alive.

Ooops

I’ve just been flicking through my art work part of the site and notice some of the quality of the images are poor. The reason behind this, when I scanned them, being idle as I am, I didn’t take the paper out of the plastic sleeves they were in. Hence the pictures do look grainy.

I will over the next couple of weeks be updating these images and more than likely be adding a few more.

Sorry, its totally unprofessional I know.

Site Updates

Over the next couple of weeks, the site will be getting some major alterations.

Basically, the site load is putting a strain on resources and in short the site takes too
long to load on slow connections.

The main aim is to reduce load time and streamline the over all site, by reducing the
amount of plugins in use at anyone time.
Please be aware that during this time, some parts may become unavailable and errors
may occur. Also please be aware, that without notice, the site maybe put into
maintenance mode.
I have intially not done it this way, so that parts of the site that are unaffected by the
distruption will not suffer.

Thanks for your patience.